4.28.2006

Take Two of These and Call Me in the Morning

What Herb and I need is God. We need him to weave sense out of the shards of our hateful comments, our tears, our pain. We need him to show us the light of our laughter, our kisses, and our tender kindnesses. We need him to unload the baggage we brought into this union. But Herb clings to his sleek red Jack Spade bag . . . and I refuse to give up my vintage teal and yellow paisley suitcase. We need him to massage us back to health and knead us into one. We need to confess and repent and forgive. We need to laugh and thank and play and pray. We know. But we stand here . . . intimidated? Or perhaps prideful. More likely, we stand here hindered by our own integrity, if that is possible. We want to approach God. We need to. But resist, for fear of treating him like a dose of Maalox . . . carelessly dumping heaping spoonfuls of the holy one into our predetermined drink of choice and expecting smooth and easy results within moments. We don't want to treat him this way . . . so we don't treat him at all.

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15 Comments:

Blogger travis said...

Your site is one of the more interesting things that I have viewed in recent.
Thanks.

12:28 PM, April 28, 2006  
Blogger Cara said...

well thank you, travis. i appreciate that! how did you find it?

12:32 PM, April 28, 2006  
Blogger travis said...

Guilty association with the Hamster and Cardinal.
The 'Shrink Me' comments had me laughing a laugh that does not come often.

12:38 PM, April 28, 2006  
Blogger the hamster said...

yea, travis was ROFLing with the "shrink me" but don't mention early 90's crap rap. he finds it as shameful as full frontal nudity in a menonite church service.

2:00 PM, April 28, 2006  
Blogger Cara said...

i gathered that from your blog, kev. and while i enjoyed shakin' my bombom on your blog this morning, that's okay. he can just be our NKOTB instead.
everyone has there place.
and since this is my blog, late 80's nuveu boy-pop shall be his.

2:04 PM, April 28, 2006  
Blogger B-cos said...

CARA! Oh my goodness! THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU! I can't BELIEVE that you made those CD's and sent them to me! I wish I had a better way of getting ahold of you right away, but this is the most immediate form I could think of. Anyway, those CD's are AMAZING (I've always had a gut instinct that you had really good taste in music...) and you DO! My current issue at hand has me a little crazy and it was SUCH a breath of fresh air to get something like that and feel so encouraged. Thanks for taking the time to think of me and make me feel so special! I haven't "been" here to your page in a while and I'm sad because it's amazing to read your honesty and candid relations of what everyday life is for you. It's amazing. OK, I will end the longest comment ever now. Thanks a million again!

7:18 AM, April 30, 2006  
Blogger Cara said...

of course, b-cos! i am so glad that you are enjoying the tunes. be kind to yourself.
cara

11:09 AM, April 30, 2006  
Blogger Lolita said...

So you guys need God, huh? I thought everyone did. ;)

9:27 PM, April 30, 2006  
Blogger Cara said...

oh lolita. yes, i know we all need god. but sometimes herb and i can't figure out how to get to the place of approaching him out of fear of being insincere in our motivations for approaching him. we don't want to treat him like the magical formula that will make everything feel better. and right now, that might be our purpose in approaching him. so sometimes we don't . . .

8:22 AM, May 01, 2006  
Blogger Lolita said...

this is a really interesting post.

here's my thought on this: i can't think of any instance in the Bible (please direct me if you can) when Jesus turned someone away for wanting a quick fix.

remember the bleeding woman who touched his robe, and was healed? and Jesus felt the "power" run out of him? he didn't turn her away or chastise her for wanting (& getting) a fast healing, but instead, he commended her for her faith.

i guess i just question anything that keeps us from asking God for help. it is good to question your motives, but the enemy wants us to question ourselves to death so that we will never approach the throne of GRACE.

for some reason, i'm thinking of nirvana's song COME AS YOU ARE.

3:05 PM, May 01, 2006  
Blogger Cara said...

for us, this is less about our understanding of grace and more about our desire to view god for who he really is. to see him as more than a vending machine. your right, we can go to him in our neediness . . . and we should . . . we just hate it when that is the only time we approach him.

8:12 AM, May 02, 2006  
Blogger travis said...

I would not find full frontal nudity in a mononite church shameful. That would be great. Nothing makes me laugh like awkwardness, such as: a woman's underwear sticking out of her pants (when not intended) or girl butt crack (again, when not intended), alot of church services, and middle aged and older people falling (but not getting hurt).
But awkward/nervous people just make me feel awkward and nervous on their behalf. That's one of the most uncomfortable things in the world for me.

12:38 PM, May 02, 2006  
Blogger Cara said...

well travis, you would have gotten kicked out of class for laughing hard, if you sat behind me during my seminary days. because i always showed unintended girl panties. i don't know why. but to this day, i am certain that every man at that school got a peak of my hanes her way during my two year stint. oddly, it never happened during undergrad. just grad schoool. weird.

12:43 PM, May 02, 2006  
Blogger Lolita said...

okay, i get it now cara!

and the daily surrender thing also eludes me.

3:48 PM, May 02, 2006  
Blogger HintofDisaster said...

Holy cow, my wife was thinking of a Nirvana song!

12:41 PM, May 03, 2006  

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