dAy*OnE*

this morning was my first treatment for my bulging disks.
the doctors and staff are all very nice,
though we have a little cigarette smoke issue
that i am going to have to figure out with one of the techs.
it is not fun being strapped down for 30 minutes
by a person who had nicotine for breakfast!
especially if you are sensitive to smoke.
but otherwise, it went really well
and i came home and got right into bed.
well, onto bed, technically.

my heart is both skeptical and hopeful.
i can't believe that i might start living a life
that is not centered around trying to manage my pain!
it is hard to believe.
for years, i have tried various treatments.
i have prayed.
but nothing has changed.
so, it is a little bit hard to let myself fully open my heart up
to the possibility.
but underneath my skepticism,
i am a hopeful person.
so, under the cautious questioning,
i am thrilled!

i can't wait to get to know pain-free cara!
i bet she is a lot of fun!