so far*so hard

(a little attempt at some self portrait love - to show off the current hair color and my new sweater from the GAP. who doesn't love a short sleeve sweater with an enormous cowl neck? the irony of it all is too fun!)

oh man,
this weight watchers thing!

i have to say:
i like food.
i like bread
and meat
and cheese.
i like golden olive oils
in which i can dip
decadent
breads
and meats
and cheeses.

weight watchers
likes "light" breads
and tiny "low carb, high fiber" tortillas.
lean meats that have not been cured to perfection
and fat-free cheeses.

fat-free cheeses?

i don't even know what that means.

does anyone know what that means?

going easy on desserts is okay.
limiting the alcohol a bit has proved to be just fine.

but it is the
actual
consumption
of
foods
that
i
want
to
eat
that i am having a bit of a problem with.

when i went to the gym to "weigh in" yesterday
i was pleasently surprised to have lost 1/2 a pound.
yep.
you heard me.
one half.

now, really, the first week on a diet,
i should have lost between 3-6 pounds.
and then after that,
it should steady out to 1 or 2 pounds each week.

but i sort of "eased into it" last week.
it was a "sort start", if you will.
and you might as well;
i did.
i tried to watch portions
and made some changes here and there.
but i didn't worry too much about
following all of the rules.

i did add fat free chocolate milk.
that was fun.
i was actually concerned that i may have
put on a few
from all of the fat free chocolate milk i consumed.

so, here i am.
week one down.
and i would throw in the towel
if i hadn't signed up for the three month plan.
not even because it is too hard.
it really isn't.
i just, honestly, don't want to do it.
i like eating what i like eating.

that is precisely WHY i signed up for the three month plan.

because i am fully aware
of how much i like
bread
and meat
and cheese.